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The words are gone

My dead muse is utterly gone. Though I know she’s there, near at hand below this thin veneer of civilization; can’t however, see past such an excellent screen. Even these words emerge only with strained and concerted effort. There’s no hint of poetry or inspiration. 

The Good Life – 170328 HOS v.17.0

The Good Life Meditation for March 27th, 2017

My mind is haunted this week with a little work-related anxiety. Mainly, I’ve been thinking over what I would do should I lose my job. That’s a bit of a curious thing to worry over given my job is fairly secure. However, as a family man, and the primary bread-winner, it’s a real concern. I’ve taken some action to address these concerns. Namely, I’ve done the following:

  • NEW RESUMES
    Update my resume in readiness for a job search. I’ve actually got two resumes ready to go. The first is my full resume which I will use to search for a project manager or analyst position. The second resume is a more simplified one which I can use to look for part-time work as a second job or as a last resort if the full time effort doesn’t yield a position quickly enough.
  • DRIVING SCHOOL LICENSE
    Now that I have my license as a driving instructor I should be able to more easily secure a fairly good-paying job teaching driving. This is another nice option should it become necessary to go this route.
  • FALL BACK PLAN
    If I were to lose my job and things got really bad, I mean REALLY bad, then I can always fall back to our life in Japan. I can send my wife back first to set up house in our old community of Shizuoka. I know we can get an apartment with Leo Palace (rental place) as this is how we got started in Japan last time. While my wife and daughter go back to Japan to jump start our new lives there (kinda the reverse of what we did coming to the USA) I will stay in the USA to continue my job search and liquidate our lives. In the end, I’ll go back to Japan as well where I will find a job teaching English, my wife will work, and our daughter will finish high school. My wife and I will then find a nice little house to rent or buy and we will settle in for the long-haul. Eventually, I’ll get both USA social security and Japan social security which will keep us going in our old age. One nice benefit of this is the outstanding health care system in Japan which will take care of us in our old age. Since our daughter is already a native Japanese she will fit in fine. If I can make it another two years at my current job then I will qualify for a pension which will really help. Actually, this is a pretty good plan. Writing this out was a big help.

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Affirmation of Human and Civil Rights

Individuals have rights which must not be neglected while pursuing the good of the many.

Five Objectives

  1. The Development and Maintenance of Good Life Principals
  2. The Cultivation of Good Emotional Reactions
  3. The Performance of Good Actions
  4. Recognition of My Scope of Control
  5. Recognition of Opportunity

Twenty Principals

  1. War
  2. Reason (Honesty & Objectivity)
  3. Homunculus
  4. The Home of Good and Evil
  5. Purpose (Biology & Virtue)
  6. Atomic Principal
  7. Principal of Nature
  8. Maturity (Wisdom & Fortitude)
  9. Social Principal
  10. The Feast of Offal
  11. Temperance (Suffering, Simplicity & Apathy)
  12. Agency & The Great Indifference
  13. The Best Seat in the House
  14. The Path of Wildness
  15. The Risk of Avoiding Risk
  16. Sin & Damnation (Falsity, Credulity, Faith, Superstition & Dogma)
  17. Complete Oblivion (no final Reunion, Reconciliation or Justice)
  18. The Great Life Adventure
  19. The Season of Philosophy
  20. Arena & Utility

Today’s Thought and Action Plan

Deliberate thinking and mastery over my emotions.. Observation of the thoughts which appear and rise within my head. Honest and objective reflection over the true scope of my control. Good assessment of the impact of my decisions and the consequences they may entail. Effective use of my time despite how I may feel. Utilization of every opportunity, pain, chance, moment of good or bad, for the improvement of the world through my own disciplined self-control towards the aims for virtue.

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Walking meditation

I walk a lot. Lately, I’ve begun using this activity as an opportunity to exercise improved control over both my body and mind.

With the body, I’m taking more deliberate steps, and maintaining improved control – oversight might be a better word – over their placement and motion. When walking the dog, I allow him more leadership – especially on my days off when I’ve nowhere in particular to go – which provides a sort of training and practice for me of giving over control to the virtuous end of allowing my dog some healthy liberty. I also get to exercise some healthy apathy in managing my response to things which are either outside my control, or for which I’ve given up control.

As for my mind, I’m aligning my thoughts to keep better watch over my breath; that steady in through the mouth and out through the nose which does wonders to balance thinking in alignment with the body. Once I hit my rhythm my walk becomes almost a float, in the same way the rest of my living is buoyed and maintained through purposeful, deliberate choice and action. It’s a better way of walking, and a good model to improved living.

My dead muse is gone

My dead muse is gone… The only words which remain now are my own. These thoughts that remain are familiar…though they come with that same labored effort I’ve known since youth…like pulling a heavy root from hard soil. It was easier when my dead muse led the way, allowing me to follow behind as she stepped easily through abstraction, and pointed the way towards silent impressions I cannot seem to muster on my own by way of my dull pedestrian life. I expect a trip back to the desert will secure our reunion. Though I wonder if she’ll ever follow me back again? Has she perhaps seen enough of civilization’s vain and glossy proposals of meaning? Has she had her fill of our fearful efforts to hold back her night? The words are gone. 

The Good Life – 170323 HOS v.17.0

The Good Life Meditation for March 23rd, 2017

Here’s another day and opportunity to live with my personal philosophy and life plan as the foremost component of my deliberate effort to live well and better as a citizen and member of my society and community. I haven’t been doing the verbal part of this effort since I began writing The Good Life down each day, and I can sense how this has reduced the significance of this effort in my life. There really is something to speaking, or at least thinking, out all of my objectives and principals as a means of bringing them forward in my mind, ready to use and abide throughout the day. So, starting today I will speak The Good Life – or at least think it out – in my mind as I begin my commute to work.

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Five Objectives

The Good Life consists of the following five objectives. The ordering is important insofar and helping to present the ideas in an unfolding manner.

  1. The development and maintenance of good, sound life principals
  2. The cultivation of good emotional reactions
  3. The performance of good actions
  4. A recognition of my true scope of control
  5. Honest assessment of opportunity

Twenty Principals

  1. Principal of War
  2. Principal of Reason
  3. Homunculus
  4. The Home of Good and Evil
  5. Purpose (Biology & Virtue)
  6. Atomic Principal
  7. Principal of Nature
  8. Principal of Maturity (Wisdom & Fortitude)
  9. Social Principal
  10. Feast of Offal
  11. Temperance (Simplicity, Suffering & Apathy)
  12. Agency & The Great Indifference
  13. The Best Seat in the House
  14. The Path of Wildness
  15. The Risk of Avoiding Risk
  16. Sin & Damnation (Falsity, Credulity, Faith, Superstition & Dogma)
  17. Complete Oblivion (no final Reunion, Reconciliation or Justice)
  18. The Great Life Adventure
  19. The Season of Philosophy
  20. Arena & Utility

Today’s Thought and Action Plan

Lately, I’ve been focusing my thinking on the simple act of monitoring my thoughts in an effort to keep them on-track and to not let them wander. I’m especially interested in keeping my thoughts focused on my work during the hours when I’m supposed to be working. This isn’t really much of a challenge, as I am naturally inclined to keep focused on my duty, though it’s a bit of a challenge to keep these thoughts on productive work rather than to let my mind wander to work-related worries. I find that monitoring my breathing helps. I learned from a Sam Harris podcast to breath in from my mouth and out through my nose which I like. I do this during my work breaks while I walk around the block which helps. So, my thought plan for today is to keep this up and to practice more better breathing and thought focus techniques. I am getting better at this.

My Action Plan for today is to get on the motorcycle at the right time, which is early enough to allow me to ride in the slow lane between 55 and 60 MPH which is both pleasant and safe. I really enjoy riding slowly to work, listening to my podcasts and enjoying the unfolding scenery. When I get to work I will start my job on time and stay focused on my tasks. I will lay out my job goals for today, and begin working on them in turn. I will take my breaks, and resume work on time. I will also spend some time today focusing on improving my work-related skills in order to make myself a better asset to the company. I am fortunate to have a  Gartner subscription where I can read interesting IT and business-related articles which are helpful. I’d also like to begin working towards getting my PMP (Project Management Professional) certification, which will improve my value to my company. Finally, I’m going to look into the Masters degree program on offer by the County in the field of Social Work, as I think this will be a good degree to have as a backup in case this whole IT thing goes south someday.

When I’m done with work I will come home and spend a nice evening with my family. I love them very much and I’m so lucky to have them.

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Has my dead muse died?

Is it possible my dead muse has died? Is that even feasible? If not truly dead, she certainly seems less present. Perhaps it’s because I’ve been so long from her dead home out there in the desert? Maybe the spell has simply worn off? She can’t utterly be gone, as I hear her faint whisper now as I type these words; like a distant cold wind across a skeleton landscape of stones and sand; hushed and muffled; indifferent and absolute.

Setting up house

Where will you set up house? Though the body must reside in some shelter of a sort to keep it safe and warm, the mind needs only space and liberty sufficient to exercise its native capabilities and natural inclination. These places are not incompatible; though an excess of the former may indeed distract from the latter; while too much of the latter may cause disconnect from those who share our former.